史嘉蕾的巴黎草莓園

　　I’ve got a lot of time to think about what kind of life I want to live recently. As I said before, I divide a day into three equal parts, that is, sleep, work and life. I don’t have to worry about sleep and work. Basically, I sleep well as long as there isn’t anything bothering me. And I like my job because I really like what I’m doing. Undoubtedly, the salary and welfare, though not striking, are good enough.

　　As to life, it’s always the hardest part for me to manage. I used to regard love life as my whole life. Consequently, I seemed to lose the entire life whenever I lost my love. I just couldn’t get my life back. As a matter of fact, I never had a real life until now. I think I started to get to know what life is all about. Love life is great if I have it, but it’s not necessary to make up a real life. It’s self-enjoyment and self-contentment that matter.

　　Self-enjoyment and self-contentment are not about shopping at all while I believe that’s probably the impression I make on others. To be honest, I’m not that material, and sometimes even window shopping makes me sick. I enjoy watching and appreciating beautiful things, and, of course, I would love to own them on condition that I do think twice. However, I realized that it’s much more precious to enjoy myself. I learned to be alone, going anywhere and doing everything all by myself, and I’m still as happy as I was in a relationship. I also learned not to look at what I don’t have but what I already possessed. I keep telling myself that I should be contented with my life now. In fact, I am contented because I live a simple, easy life, which is exactly what I hope for. I know I am lack of some other important elements to lead a full life. I’ll try to figure them out and do my best to pursue them without feeling bad for myself.

　　One thing I’m sure that I have to do first is to increase more of the hobbies on the list to diversify my life. I always want to develop myself to the fullest, and that would make my life quite interesting. Besides reading English novels and learning French, which sort of appeal to the brain, I may start with adult ballet to exercise my body, keep in shape and stay healthy. I would also like to do some oral language exchanges in English and French. No matter what I’m going to do or whether I could accomplish all this, the one and only essential is to love myself true and deep. The philosophy is love yourself as well as look forward, and you will attract the right person to admire and adore you, and to love you all the more.